Self Esteem 101

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I had therapy today.  I feel like most of my blogs are going to start with that line.  Therapy is where a lot of the shit that goes on in my head just kinda comes out.  I’ve kept what I feel like hidden for years so it’s not an easy thing for me to do.  I’m not someone who views themselves as an overdramatic sad person either so normally I’m not all about the feelings stuff but I suppose if everyone expressed themselves in a perfectly normal and well adjusted manner then we wouldn’t need therapy.  So there’s that.

Eggs.

So one of the first things that I’ve kept nicely hidden is…ugh…and this is a pain for me to write, my huge self esteem issue.  Most people don’t even see it and if you’ve ever had a chance encounter with me then I’m guessing you didn’t even notice it.  You see with people I just meet or don’t really know, it doesn’t come out.  It’s only when I start to get to know you and usually it hits about 2-3 months after we begin to hang out when things get a little weird with me.  Then that’s when the pattern that I didn’t even know existed until recently kicks in and my friendships typically and pretty routinely get fucked.

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